Growing

What do you do when your stomach knots up with nerves at the thought of tomorrow?

Tomorrow I drive. Tomorrow I take move out into the world. Tomorrow is the start of my first real step forward--my first "next step" as an artist. Tomorrow is full of unknowns.

I breathe deep. I remind myself that this is exciting. I think about all that I'm going to learn.

But I also think about how young I still feel. I'm still not sure I should be allowed to do this on my own. I'm not sure that I should be counted as a grown up. When did that happen?

I'm scared. But beyond that, I am excited because I know that I'm gonna be OK, and when I make it through this I might just end up being a little stronger, a little bolder, a little more prepared for whatever God has for me next. I'm OK with growing up.